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Monday, September 30, 2002

This ****is not working..I dunno why..but it won't upload.....but oh wells..I guess. Today was an ordinary day...Monday..had to wait for my sis 'til 2 when I got out @ 9:35. Sucky I know but I guess that's life for me...a carless college student..hahah..loser?..pathetic?..maybe..hah. Anyway, I saw the "someone" today. I guess the more I see him, the more I realize I'll just be admiring him for him..not someone that I would have something with. Maybe cause he's too good for me and not his type..but I guess that's also life for me. We can't always get what we want..though I never actually tried pursuing something. But he'll always be cute to me ;). It'd be really cool if we were friends though. If only..

So I guess that was just about my day. Came home and tasted what I baked/made yesterday. It didn't turn out that bad..hahah..I thought it wasn't suppose to be like that but I guess it was ok. I would eat it..hahahh..well since I made it. But I don't think it's that bad anyways.

Oh yeah, talked to Mae online..she finally saw me online..haha ;D. Gave me a site to look at...=T....and yeah....that IF ONLIES..;I

Olive laughed at 8:40 PM//

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Saturday, September 28, 2002

What a Saturday..Woke up got ready to go to class..drove..went back home..watched some TFC w/ great 'Ol mom...went to Linda Vista for a somewhat family get together w/ bro and mom..ate lobsters, flan, pancit, bbq, and paflova..clapped for CJ! she's soOo cute and smart! hehe...reading them books! ;)..got "pasalubongs"..thank u Ate Ruth! I really like the necklace!...went back home around 8..went to Marv's drink up..Whoa! what a place/party/site it was. Come to think of it..it was fun/sad/another experience of a drink up. Saw familiar faces..felt like somewhat got hit on? but nah..just somewhat..but No..haha..anwyays..NoO Worries! I stayed sobber! ;D w/ a few people less than 5..haha. But oh wells..it was fun people watching..to the point where you'll feel sad for the person cause they'll just look like as some people said a complete "idiot"..they said it's different to get buzzed w/ friends than @ a party where u hardly know anyone..so yeah.that was point I thought was pretty true. And it was another experience of a "crazy" I think somewhat how life is for modern teens these days...hah. So yeah..that was about it! Thanks Mike and Rolo! ;D

Olive laughed at 10:51 PM//

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Thursday, September 26, 2002

Today, went to school..class..lab for english..saw jing on my way to bio..said bye to joe..hehe..should've went the other way of the door for the lab..then kicked it for a while after class. Mike B came to where we are and we left to go to walmart to buy presents for Marvie and Jason. Went home real quick to change then went jogging @ the park by Montgomery. We jogged for about 5 minutes and jogged for a while. Really really tiring! but worth it!..good way to start out! ;D maybe next time we'll get to run more. Went home rested, ate cantalope, fixed Jason's present, cousin from England called, talked about my lola Tiya who recently passed away. I LOVE YOU LA! I know you're safely in heaven now! ;). And now, I just told Jason about the guy I'm attracted to...here it goes:

pimpercr0mbiejay: hey hey
LP55O: hey!
LP55O: Hey what's your 1st class tom?
pimpercr0mbiejay: dude look at my ugly blog
LP55O: I still have your pics from the ads
pimpercr0mbiejay: oral comm
pimpercr0mbiejay: with pollack
LP55O: what's the addy?
pimpercr0mbiejay: haha
LP55O: oh ok
pimpercr0mbiejay: hey!
LP55O: ;D
pimpercr0mbiejay: http://geocities.com/lol_iakona
pimpercr0mbiejay: yay! ive been wanting those pictures forever! i thought they were gone forever!
LP55O: how do u pout your blog on a page?
LP55O: hehe
LP55O: i keep forgetting
pimpercr0mbiejay: aha i dont know. i did it myself. you know just put my own text.
LP55O: i like your page
pimpercr0mbiejay: did you go to the right?
LP55O: Oo
LP55O: uhuh
pimpercr0mbiejay: hah whack pictures
pimpercr0mbiejay: do you like my ghetto picture? hah.
pimpercr0mbiejay: so how do you like the page?
LP55O: yeah
LP55O: they're cute
LP55O: hahah
pimpercr0mbiejay: man it took me forever to just make that ugly thing
pimpercr0mbiejay: hah psh
LP55O: hah
LP55O: it looks good though
pimpercr0mbiejay: you can read what the word says right?
pimpercr0mbiejay: ack. i hate it.
pimpercr0mbiejay: i think that ghetto shaved head picture is funny though
LP55O: yipeeshippy?
LP55O: hahah
LP55O: nah
LP55O: lols
LP55O: heheh
pimpercr0mbiejay: haha its a K
LP55O: :-)
pimpercr0mbiejay: hah
pimpercr0mbiejay: i still hate it though.
LP55O: how come?
pimpercr0mbiejay: hah i dont know
LP55O: hehe
LP55O: hey guess what?
pimpercr0mbiejay: chicken butt
pimpercr0mbiejay: haha
LP55O: Ilol
LP55O: hey! u remember
LP55O: ahha
LP55O: nah..but I have a "cuttie"
LP55O: I'm somewhat attracted to the guy :-[
pimpercr0mbiejay: nnnnnnnooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
pimpercr0mbiejay: hahah
pimpercr0mbiejay: alrite who do i have to kill?????!?
pimpercr0mbiejay: hah.
LP55O: lol
LP55O: shutup
LP55O: hah
LP55O: something new for me!
LP55O: u always have girls
LP55O: hahah
LP55O: :-P
LP55O: :-D
LP55O: I saw him about 3 weeks ago?
LP55O: from Jerome's class
pimpercr0mbiejay: haha i do not ALWAYS have girls. haha
pimpercr0mbiejay: what class is this?
LP55O: haha
pimpercr0mbiejay: i bet i know him
LP55O: most of the time
LP55O: japanese
LP55O: do u?
pimpercr0mbiejay: name?
LP55O: as people tell me..his name is Sean? shawn?
LP55O: hahah
pimpercr0mbiejay: sean what?
pimpercr0mbiejay: or well how does he look?
LP55O: he's skinny..kinda reminds me of Nick DIzon..I dunno why...
LP55O: he's cute ;D
LP55O: :-[
LP55O: I could've met him yesterday...but too shy
LP55O: if only I was u
LP55O: heheh

LP55O: j/k
pimpercr0mbiejay: hows his hair?
LP55O: black?
pimpercr0mbiejay: spiked?
LP55O: short...sometimes wear the beanie thing
LP55O: I think?
pimpercr0mbiejay: hah what a question
pimpercr0mbiejay: backpack or shoulder bag?
LP55O: I heard he came from japan
LP55O: messenger bag
LP55O: hahah
LP55O: I feel like I'm stalkin the guy
pimpercr0mbiejay: he has an art class right?
LP55O: I dunno
LP55O: hah
LP55O: somewhat plays the guitar
pimpercr0mbiejay: fine, have you ever seen him messin with a deck of cards?
LP55O: haha..I think so..Nina Mae told me that he's the card guy
LP55O: ahhh..u do know him
LP55O: damnit
pimpercr0mbiejay: haha
pimpercr0mbiejay: I TOLD YOU I KNOW HIM.
pimpercr0mbiejay: yeah he came from japan
LP55O: yeah
LP55O: I heard
LP55O: :-[
pimpercr0mbiejay: i eat breakfast with that fool on mondays wednesdays and fridays
pimpercr0mbiejay: why is him coming from japan bad?
LP55O: oh no..lol..that's my face of blushing
LP55O: haha
LP55O: but not sad looking
LP55O: heheh
LP55O: man..I just realized I like simple guys...but for some reason, they tend to all be skinny?
pimpercr0mbiejay: hah okay
pimpercr0mbiejay: haha.
pimpercr0mbiejay: seans chill
pimpercr0mbiejay: he's taking RO at state
pimpercr0mbiejay: air force.
pimpercr0mbiejay: hoo-ah.
LP55O: like preston..this guy in the class I tutor for last year, I was gonna tell him he was cute..but didn't..haha.underclassmen..and now him?
LP55O: lols
LP55O: OoO
LP55O: a lot of people knows him...
LP55O: u have class @ 8 tomorrow for ms. pollack right?
pimpercr0mbiejay: yeah
pimpercr0mbiejay: sean is a sophomore
LP55O: his last name's chill?
pimpercr0mbiejay: hah no dumbo!
LP55O: u said seans chill
LP55O: hahaha
pimpercr0mbiejay: chill meaning he is chill
pimpercr0mbiejay: chill=cool. h
pimpercr0mbiejay: aha
pimpercr0mbiejay: so why dont you tell him?
LP55O: hah
LP55O: lol
LP55O: I dunno
LP55O: I was never really formally introduced ot him
pimpercr0mbiejay: oh gosh.
pimpercr0mbiejay: ill introduce you then.
LP55O: I kick it w/ jerome and talk to them
pimpercr0mbiejay: hah
LP55O: but not directly
LP55O: nO!..I'm too shy
LP55O: hahhhah
LP55O: plus I dunno..
pimpercr0mbiejay: too shy
pimpercr0mbiejay: what the..
pimpercr0mbiejay: haha
LP55O: lol
LP55O: when it comes to guys..
LP55O: haha
LP55O: heheh
pimpercr0mbiejay: but i mean its sean
pimpercr0mbiejay: hah.
LP55O: lol

Olive laughed at 2:08 PM//

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Monday, September 23, 2002

I got home early today cause "Bing" dropped me off. Not much happened but a few highlights of the days from this morning are 1) Got in my 1st class, I saw Joe when I got in, as I sat, I looked at him and he said hey! I said getting cold? cause he was putting his jacket on..haha..then he said yeah with a slight laugh ;). 2) same class, we were reading something from the book just like popcorn where you call on people...this guy from across the room looks at us our side and goes.."...in a grey jaket"..I didn't hear who..but I thought it was me cause I had a gray jacket..lol!..so I started reading loud..after a few words..I heard people laugh somewhat..then I look behind me..see a guy in a gray jacket as well..then I asked if it was him..hahah..he said yeah..hahaha...so the usual me, I laughed it off, said oh wells, and continued reading..lol. hahaha.w/ sounding prolly stupid reading..but hah..oh well ;D. -OoO..I told friends about that happening..hahah..then Bing goes..I thought that guy was talking about me!..hahaha..then we started laughing..lol! he was all I bet he did that on purpose!..haha..bastard!..haha..all good though..laugh laugh ;D 3) my bro's 'lil thing today...sorry that it didn't go the way you wanted it to. Maybe this Wednesday it will yeah?! good luck! ;) Maybe this isn't the right day. Good Luck!

And so yeah..I think that's about it..haha..someone rang the doorbell when I got home but I didn't answer..haha..I was scared..hehe..I opened it minutes later turning out being a package. I mean someone left a package @ the door for my bro..by FedEx...haaha...

Question: What do you get if Fedex and UPS got together or combined?!
Answer: FEDUP..hahahaha..I know I know..corny..but HEY! you know u like it! ;D

Olive laughed at 12:58 PM//

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Saturday, September 21, 2002

Yesterday was a pretty good day. haha..I get lazy to type stuff in my blog when I've already written my thought in my journal. But since it was a special day for me, I'm going to type..haha..and plus I have nothing else better to do at the moment. ;D

So yeah, yesterday morning, Marvs and I was walking towards the library to wait for Jodie. On our way there, I saw my "cuttie" walking towards us; So..being attracted to guy and all, I didn't know what to do..if I should look and smile or not..or just keep on walking and not look. I ended up just looking forward and pretend that I didn't see him and just kept on talking to Marvs. Then on my way to my aunt's, I realized that I should'ved looked at him and smile cause I think that would just be nice. I told Marvs about that thought then she said "You should've! cause he was looking at us"..hahah..MAN!..hahaha..too late for me! but I guess you can only learn from that. Anyways, enough about that..I don't like talking about stuff like that and get hopes up. I guess he'll be that someone I'll be attracted to for now..haha..my "cuttie"..then end up being disappointed ;T..ahh

Anyways, at around 5 Marvs picked me up w/ Mae. We headed off to pick up Mahrs and Chirstell and straight to Jodie's house to meet up with everyone. There, we hugged and talked for a while w/ the people we haven't seen in a while. We also took pictures..hahah...my so called "timer" that I wasn't even sure how to use which worked after about the 3rd try and knocking off Jodie's fountain thing..sorry 'bout that Jodie ;D. After a while, we decided to head off to Cheesecake Factory with 3 cars and told the other people to just follow. Getting there, Mary anne G and I decided to go inside to tell them how many people are there. They said we had to wait for about 1 hour so we walked around. After walking around, returning Joy C's shirt, getting some drinks, and looking at the cool houses most of us wish we had when we were 'lil kids..I still wish I had one..haha ;D. We headed back to Cheesecake Factory only to find that we had to wait for 2 hours. SoOo..after some debate and a few headache from hunger..hah, we all decided to go to Claim Jumpers.

There, we had to wait for about 1 hour and 45 minutes or so I think..but it was better than the mean 'ol Cheesecake Factory. Plus, the atmosphere there was better. We took some more pictures there and looked at the menu for a while then we finally got our table. Everyone shared with someone. I shared with Jodie..we should've just gotten the Club sandwich cause they were GoOd! ;D the buffalo wings were salty..I still like Applebee's and Wings 'N Things better but yeah. Over all the food was delicious! ;D

SoOo after the long waits,"Waiting List", few laughs, picture taking, headace from hunger,walking around window shopping, few unwated stairs, and the long forever watied girls night out, that event was wonderful. Though a few like Anh, Jen, Maryanne D, Val, and the twins didn't make it, at least most of us were there. It was part going away party but mostly a new beginning of our adulthood...hah.

As I saw the other table w/ older women, I realized and saw that that could be us in a few years. Come to think about it, it will be ;D. For all goes well. So yeah, I guess that's about it. Can't wait for the next get together. Though we all didn't get to mingle, there's always a next time. Just wanted to say I love you all!!! and THANK YOU! for a wonderful Friendship! *MUAHS*

Olive laughed at 2:09 PM//

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Tuesday, September 17, 2002

You know it really feels good to help someone out. Even w/ just a simple advice, I think it can make a difference! ;D. Anyways, today didn't do much. Went to school an hour earlie as every Tuesday is. But something wierd happened. As I sat by myself by the usual spot, I see a lady approaching me. As she comes closer and stops by me, she goes and ask "Would you have a cell phone with you? cause I locked my key in my car..." I say no(and thinking in my head..this lady looks awfully familiar...then I remember..she asked the same thing to me and my sister when I went to school to talk to my counselor..thinking it might be something different, I waited to see what she would say next. So I said to myself if she ask me for 2 quarters for the pay phone...it's the same LADY!) SoOo..then she goes..."Would you have 2 QUARTERS by any chance?"(Here thinkin..AHHH!!! same CRAZY LADY!!!--I had to be calm)..I said let me see..took out my coin pouch and unfortunately only had pennies..so I said no I don't..sorry. Then she said it's ok thanks!..then walked away. How CREEPY!!! is that?!?!..either it's a BIG co-incidence or she's just doing that to get .50!..hahaha..how pathetic/!?!..CRAZY CREEPY I would say!

Olive laughed at 9:01 PM//

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Monday, September 16, 2002

What a weekend!!!...well, Imma start last Friday the 13th..hehe..CrEepy. Oh yea..speaking of Friday the 13th, my english teacher Mr. Osbourne..haha..said that on Friday the 13ths, more accidents happens..hah. Anyway, Nothing bad happened to me that day! Thank God! ;D a friend of my mind called me! Kevin! I've been trying to contact his butt ever since he moved but was unsuccessful all the time. But yeah, while I was chopping away helping my mom prepare food for my aunt's bday the next day, the phone rang, I answered and could barely hear the person on the other end due to the static. Hah..As I heard the person talk from the other of the receiver, I hear a very familiar voice. I thought it was Mikee R. cause it sounded like him..trying to get the phone clear from that static, I started walking around the house. Starting in the living room where I was, going up stairs to my room then my bro's. The line got clear for a few mins. in my bro's room but got static once again. As I looked crazier than usual walking around the rooms and posing in different ways just to get a good connection, I decided to change the phone cause we figured that it was probably my phone. On my way down the stairs, I spotted a place there w/ a REALLY good connection. The spot being the landing thing on my stairs..haha.. I stayed there and we got to talk for a while :D. I'm sooo happy that he called! we talked about San Francisco a lot....I really want to go there now! maybe someday we'll be able to have a road trip there and meet up! ;). He told me about his first friend..turning out to have "3" jobs..hahah..and seing lisa @ Frisco..hah. Then he had to go cause his phone was dying. He said he was going to call back the next day, but didn't get to. Oh yeah, he said that he'll be trying out @ this one thing..I know he'll get in! ;D WISH YOU LUCK IN EVERYTHING KEVIN! MISS U!!

So yeah, Saturday came and it was another day to go to school..my reading class. It was an ok day..haha...irionically getting in a group w/ Jasmin..hahah..she's pretty funny! ;D..just laughing @ whatever as usual ;). After class, my dad picked me up and headed straight to my aunt's house for her simple "Hawaiian bday celebration." It was cool. I saw Moe and other relatives I haven't seen in a while. I got to drive my mom @ Munda too to drop off a gift..a food she cooked by the way ;D. After the party, my aunt decided to go gambling. I was finally able to go cause I was 18!!! ;D..yeah!! hahah. There was only 5 of us though. But though there were only 5 of us, it was still fun! It was the first time for me going to Sycuan. When we got there, the main parking lot was full so we ended up parking on the 2nd one then rode the shuttle. Passed the smoking area in the Casino and got some looks like "I don't think you're suppose to be here"..hahah..but never got carded! ;D..yeah! heheh. To make things short, I watched my dad play this .5 SLUT ..hahaha..then I tried..I wasn't feeling it though...so no luck for me..but there was for my dad! and prolly would've for my mom if only she knew more about the game. I ended up winning $3..hahah w/ this one game called...ahh..I forgot..starts w/ a K..hehe..pretty cool though! :D. Prolly something I'd do I dunno...twice a year? or once?...or just whenever someone goes and asks if I'd like to go..haha..got hom around 11 something and mostly had fun! ;D

Then Sunday, my family and I went to church around 1 to our old church. It was great going back there again. The church that we go to isn't that big but I Love it because it's so serene and beautiful. It's just great to see more people going to church w/ lively music and everything. I love both churches either way ;D. After church, my sister received a phone call from her friend Mona inviting her to a simple get together that ended up being her and her twin's bday. My sisted took me w/ her so she'll have someone to sing w/ her and since I knew her anyways...hah. We spent a few good times singing there then went home. I brought by oral comm book there but was really unsuccessful in trying to read and study. Oh wells..we went home w/ Grace since we picked her up and then I went home and tried to study. I got to review over the 2 chapters I already read already but didn't get to review the 2 other chapters I needed to...er...but I tried to review this morning!..haha..oh wells. I just wish to pass the test!!! ;T. But yeah..I'll try to do better next time ;D...hah. I saw Mahrs today, also Marvs and Jodie! ..hah. We're going to Cheese Factory on Friday!!! yeah!! ;D..hehe..Wish everyone can go! like Val!..so yeah..can't wait 'til then gals!..That was about my day today. Had to wait for my sis about 1 hour after 12 cause of the lab but it was cool cause I saw Mike and Earl doing there classwork then we decided to get some grub then they went our separate ways..hah. On the way home, my sis and I got some Milkyway Mocha Blended @ Caffe Tazza which is SoOo YuMmY! ;D..hah..and that's about it! ;). Good Day everyone! *MUAHS*

Olive laughed at 5:35 PM//

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Thursday, September 12, 2002

What a morning...on my way to school in the car w/ my sister while listening to the radio, I hear the dj say something about a teacher who died from Morse High school. My high school, at first I didn't really care..then I wondered who it was. Then I heard someone who called in and said that Mr. Cain was one of the best teachers..something like that. I wasn't sure if it was crane or cain but I was thinkin that maybe it was Cain. When I told one of my friends about it during my first class Englsih Lab, she told me that her sister told her about it. That he died a few days ago. Then my heart dropped. I fetl like crying because he was a great teacher. Teacher that brought out one of my creativeness in me. My love for poetry. How irionic how he thought us how to write epitaphs...and now I'll be writing one for him. I started it and finish it later when I get the chance to reflect. Well, I guess it's another part of life that we just have to learn to deal with. I just want to say that I pray for you Coach Cain and your family. I know you're safe in heaven now watching above us all! ;). You truly will be missed. Thank you for being one of my inspirations!

For a good note, getting off my sadness..just something that I can joke about is Jing's stalker...hehe..a guy that just parked by her and started talking to her...hah. all of them have stalkers now..hehe. ;D Jing and I waited for Eliza and Kim then we went off to Starbucks then Jing dropped me off here. Oh yeah, on the way to Starbucks, I saw Joe, the guy I was eyeing before in my class going in his car. I watned to say hi when he was closer but he didn't look but on the road, I saw him look and so I waived @ him..hahah..I betcha he was like..who the heck is waiving @ me?!?..haha..he looked kinda hesitant but waived back..lol..prolly think I'm crazy..oh wells, I met him already anyway. And so yeah, there's more to do for this day...I wish I can live my life more to the fullest. I feel like I want or need to do something really productive. Maybe join something to help out..volunteer?..or something. cause in away, life's just repetetive for me. Maybe someday I'll be able to do something...join something good and help me feel better about myself. ;)

Olive laughed at 10:44 AM//

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Wednesday, September 11, 2002

By the way, today I found out that my lola Tiya is at level 4 w/ her colon cancer. She's my lola's younger sister and my lola's been crying as I heard. I pray for you lola Tiya! I love you! Oh yeah, I finally got to talk to my lola last week! I almost cried when I said I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU(I told my bro to tell her that)..cause she said it back! I MISS HER!. ;D But I'm glad I finally got to!

Olive laughed at 8:41 PM//

well, I know I haven't updated lately but yeah..I guess there's been stuff going on w/ my life. Not that dull and boring..haha..like this morning, it was fun!..hehe..Me, Mae, Bj, and Jasmin took pictures like we were crazy!..hahaha..it was sooo fun and funny though! Jasmin's pretty cool! you're a funny gal! ;D I guess that's one of the highlights of my day. I stayed w/ Eliza in the library and waited for Jing to get out of class then we saw Jerome on the way to Kim. We stayed there for a while and I saw.ahh..I forgot his name..I'm sooo bad w/ names, it's not even funny. But yea, he had his guitar and we looked @ Jerom's autofest pics..hahah..that girl needs to tan her boob area..it's ugly..her face was all white..lol!. Anyways, I saw this one guy that's in there class kicking it w/ them and he seems pretty cool to me..kinda cute?!?.haha..;p. Maybe I'll be staying there on Wednesdays now..haha ;D...j/k!

So yea, today's September 11. A year to remeber what had occured last year. And you know what? while I was in my 'rents room, I saw the sunset and decided to watch it..being hopeless romantic and all..and also just enjoying watching this, it reminded me of the horrible event. Inspiring me to write a poem about it..so here it goes:

As I watched the orange bright glow slowly fade away behind the gray blurry cloud like smoke,
I thought about one thing...The Twin Towers that went down a year ago.

As I see the ball of fire hide and disappear leaving only a faded ray of light orange hue,
it reminded me of peace, hate, and anger (patriotism)

As I see this vivid blurry orange light, I see two monuments filled with the world going down.

As hatred, violence, and racism should fill my mind, it is only filled with hope and peace.

As i see and watched the orange bright glow slowly fade away behind the gray blurry cloud like smoke, I found peace and ending.

I see lights start to glow one by one like candles being lit for those who were innocent and heroes.
I see people at one and angels fly high.

As I see this glow like fire, I see closer. I see cultures and the world.
I see the sky start to darken and leaves a comfort that says it will be ok! We're UNITED, We're ONE!

Olive laughed at 7:42 PM//

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