[ everything behind me seems so insignificant / lost in my confusion ]
lives a 20 year old female
named Olive. She has a
million stories in her life.
And this is the place where she
lets all the stories alive!
I found this somewhere and I thought I could relate to it and maybe it would to you too.
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't. I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you. I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
The ones in Italics are the ones I have not exactly learned..yet?
The one in bold and italics is what I'm learning right now. I don't exactly know what I want to be, but I am finding the person that I am. :)
The ones in bold are the ones I definitely learned.
And the rest, I have learned, still learning, or just simply know.
Olive laughed at 12:51 AM//
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Thursday, April 29, 2004
...Spanglilocalog...
Ok I had another word that I thought up to mix Spanish, English, Ilocano, and Tagalog, but I forgot what it was so I just made that one up. Anyway, haan ko amo kung anong gusto kong pagusapan aqui. Awan gamin nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon pero I've been getting caught up w/ my school work sorta. Quiero ir a curves pero soy tamad. Didjay kasar de mi prima es en Agosto y nauubusan na ako ng horas at panahon. Ewan ko ba... ;/
Summer school is coming up y no sé cual classes necesito. Necesito llamar con mi consejo para mapagusapan yung mga kailangan ko pang subjects. Minsan wish ko na fluent rin ako sa Ilocano. Siguro kung 'di kami lumipat aqui, I'd know mas Ilocano. Pero wala narin akong magagawa kundi ipractice dito sa bahay minsan o durante los fiestas con mis parientes. Kanina pala, leí una journal de una muchacha y ella perdió a su papá. I felt sad y napagisipan ko na ang hirap rin si nangyari sa akin yon. Minsan sana nasasabi ko rin sa mga magulang ko na mahal ko sila in person. No sé pero I grew up being like that. Kami ng mga kabsat ko. One of these days, I hope soon na masasabi ko rin sa kanila yon na personal.
See, batsit nga Ilocano ti amo ko kaya bihira lang ak mag Ilocano. Nalimutan ko na ti Ilocano ko..hah. I think nalilipatan ko rin yung ibang tagalog ko kasi napagalaran ko sa Psychology na klase ko na cuando sabe una idioma that's the kinda the same sa bagong wika na pinagaaralan mo, medjo malilipatam ti otra idioma na alam mo. Kasi may mga salita na pareho rin at ngayon, mas focus ak ti español porque quiero be fluent rin sa wika na to.
Ada pala ti me gusta en el trabajo de mi amiga Jen. Se llama "hairyass" y I think na 'di pa siguro meant na magka nobyo ako dahil 'di gaano ng yayari yung mga gusto kong mangyari. Ikukontiniyo ko 'to mamaya.
Olive laughed at 5:20 PM//
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Tuesday, April 27, 2004
...What a Day!...
What a day! hah. Went to panish class, but of course, I was late again. All the staff parking were full so I had to park by the meter cause it was the closest one to my class. Class went by and prior and during class, I received 2 phone call from Tep and Mary Anne. In the end, I ended up going to Mary Anne's and Tep and Jen came after. We all headed to Frys to get some for the YuMmy truffles! oh man! they're my FAV! they just melt in your mouth like whoa! We also played that one interactive game where you see yourself on tv and you slap the ninjas! oh man! hillarious! hahaha Mary Anne and I were all "Let's use our heads!" hahah so we were using our heads to "slap" the ninja and of course..we hit each other's heads! hahah but it was a BLAST! hahaha..I want one now! lol! Then we also tried the DDR but it wasn't working so boo! Mary Anne also looked for a digi cam there to take w/ her to Philippines in June! I'm jealous she's going! But hope I get to go this coming Christmas.
Anyway, after our fun there, we headed to Mesa and went to use the comp and then we walked to Jen to her class and waited for her. We were by her class like bums! haha.but it was fun nonetheless! :D Then we headed to Fashion to get some grub and then headed back down to Mary Anne's where we just talked and kicked it. Mary Anne then went to work, Jen to her house to change, and Tep and I went to Jen's to pick her up. We headed to Mission to go and try to study @ the beach but that didn't happen. I slept and Tep got hit on by the blackman saying "my friend's feeling you"..lol! Jen answered for her and said "We have boyfriends"..hahah..as if he was talking to us huh? lol! but "karma" it is! lol! By the way, before the beach, we went to the banks around the place where Tep got hit one by an old man..ugh.. hah.
But yeah, the beach was great! I can go there and sleep anyday w/ a wonderful weather like this! :D After a while @ the beach, we checked out a spot for Jen's bonfire in June! Wow! :D First one we checked out and it was IT! hahaha..Islanderlover and I were jumping for JOY! hahahah! It's just so perfect! I think you should be there by 7 just to REALLY make sure u know?!? haha ;D I say you do! Then we drove around some more and waved @ people we didn't know. Went to look @ shot glasses and stores around Bellmont and Tep treated us to this one place by there where they have the YUMMIYEST Sloppy Joe!!! UmMM..haha ;) Then we called it a night. Thanks Tep, Jen, and Mary Anne for a fun Tuesday! haha. :D Until Friday and Saturday?!? lol! Gotta love all my friends !:D Always know that I'm HERE for you ALL whenever you need a FRIEND!!! Take care, God Bless, and Love U! ;D so SMILE!!! :D
Olive laughed at 10:22 PM//
...Quotes III...
1) Don't turn your back on love when it's
already infront of you. Don't
drive it away from you, because if you do,
someday, you'll think again,
why you let love fly when it was there next to
you.
2) In Love, think things over first if you're
sure about how you feel.
Don't fall too hard not knowing where you will
stand, 'coz it will hurt
real bad if things don't go the way you want
them to be.
3) It's an irony to know that it takes hours
for someone to have guts to
say "hi" to the one he likes, days to admire,
weeks to miss the person,
months to love, but just a blink of an eye to
say goodbye...
4) Go for the person who loves you. It is not
wrong to love someone who
belongs to someone else, but it is much better
to love someone who could
also love you in return.
5) Love isn't something we hold, it is
something we set free, It's not
something we just do, but it's something we
don't imagine to be. Lastly,
it's not something we choose, it chooses us...
6) The scariest thing about falling in love is
getting hurt. The scariest
thing about getting hurt is not being able to
love again. The scariest
thing about not loving again is being alone
forever.
7) When you follow your heart, worry not where
it will lead you, for your
heart knows the way. And if you do get lost or
reach a dead end, use your
head to lead you back home.
8) When you truly care for someone, you don't
look for faults, you don't
look for answers, you don't look for mistakes.
Instead, you fight for the
mistakes, you accept the faults, and you
overlook excuses.
9) It's better to lose your pride over the one
you love, than lose your
loved one over your useless pride.
10) Love is not "it's your fault", but "I'm
sorry", not "where are you?",
but "I'm here", not "how could you?", but "I
understand", not "I wish you
were here", but "I'm thankful you are".
11) The beginning of love is to let those we
love be just themselves, and
not twist with our own image. Otherwise, we
love only the reflection of
ourselves we find in them.
12) If a relationship is truly meant for you,
your love will find a way to
make it happen, and God will be there to make
sure it will stay.
Olive laughed at 9:13 PM//
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Monday, April 26, 2004
...Surveys...
1. bat k single ngayon?
No one's really "there" @ the moment?!?..maybe "hairyass?!?"
2. Nainlove ka na ba sa taong di mo pa nakikita?
Nope
3. Nagkakacrush ka naman ba?
Of course..who hasn't? I have 2 right now ..hah :)
4. Mga friends mo rin ba single?
Some of them are...
5. Describe being single in two words.
Care Free
6. Choose: steady bf or gf, mu, fling?
Steady Bf!
7. Favorite color (kht wlang conection..)
Red
8. Did it ever reach a point when u really really wanted to have someone as ur bf or gf then suddenly u switched ur thoughts on leaving him/her instead?
Nopes..that's just sad
9. What do u do when ur sad?
Write, draw, do something artistic, or talk?
10. What do u do when ur mad?
Same as above or I re-think about what just happened. I don't hold grudges
11. How does it feel seeing the person u like with someone else?
Hm..jealousy? haha
12. Are you single now because you were dumped?
nopes
13. Are you single now because you love to dump?
nope
14. Message to the other singles:
"love" will come to you when you least expect it. When will mine come along?! haha
....Another one...
1. Single or taken?
SINGLE
2. Describe yourself in one word?
Crazy
3. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Turn the alarm off
4. What's the last thing you do before you go to bed?
Try to find a comfy position
5. Something about you that you're proud of:
Uh..I have a job?!..lol
6. Are you in love?
NOPE
7. What's your mobile number?
Ah you guys know already..mobile?..hah jk
8. Are you happy?
yeah I guess so :)
9. Why?
For a lot of reasons ;D
10. What is the most important material you own?
Computer, car, cell, shoes, clothes....2m2..hah
By the way, good times today seing friends again! :D Even when the day was soo hot, good times like usual. Work was cool and slow and Spanish is getting harder. Lj, you'll get through this! I'm here for your ass anytime k?! :D
Olive laughed at 8:04 PM//
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Sunday, April 25, 2004
...Funny...
Olive laughed at 1:12 AM//
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Saturday, April 24, 2004
...Simple Times And Moments....
I was here at home around 11 when I received a phone call from Tep asking what I was doing. I said I was just at home using the computer. This conversation lead to her and Jen coming over since they didn't get to find the bonfire they were going to. They arrived at my house and of course told them that mi casa es su casa. Really though, any of my friends are welcome to my house to come over or even sleep because my house is always open. As long as I'm home anyway..hahah.. ;p. So cooked for hungry Tep ;) and yes I remembered how she loves seafood so I cooked her some frozen shrimp and we headed up to my room to look @ pictures and Jen taking the test to determine what her type of guy is. Time went by quick and it's now 1:44. See, it's simple times and moments like these I treasure and love :D Everytime I spend quality time with my friends, I feel a closer bond with them and it's great! :) So yeah, I just wanted to get that thought out!
..."I don't need any golden luxury to be happy because all I need is the luxury of friendship and I'll be well off in life" and "I'd rather be at home with my friends doing simple nothings like watching a movie or plainly having fun than spending spend all my money buying material things I don't neccesarily need." ;) Take Care and God Bless! Also, have a great weekend!
Olive laughed at 1:48 AM//
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Friday, April 23, 2004
...Quotes II....
I found these quotes while chatting w/ my cousin in Manila. Enjoy them cause I can relate to the first one and the others are also meaningful.
"There's one thing a quote does that no one else can do... it can become a part of you. You may never meet the person who said it, but that person is now a companion. Quotes help you get over pain, feel love, make you smile and laugh, and help you through those tough days when you think that no one else knows what you are going through."
"There are many things in life that catch your eye, but only a few that will catch your heart... pursue those!"
"Every journey into the past is complicated by delusions, false memories, false namings of real events."
"You always smile but, in your eyes your sorrow always show."
"With every beginning there is an end."
"You hear a lot more when nothing is being said."
Olive laughed at 1:33 AM//
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Thursday, April 22, 2004
...Madame Butterfly...
Maggie picked me up around 6 with her husband and we headed to Diversionary Theater in HillCrest..well close by there. Hah. We were the first once there along w/ another guy from class and later Lester and the others came. Maggie, her hubby, and I ate at this small cafe/restaurant that was not cheap at all..hah but it was something new and fun. The show ended up being really interesting. Unexpectedly a girl showed her boobs and I really didn't think the guy would strip all his clothes off, but he did. Hahah..Lester and his elbowing was funny. But other than those unexpected moments, I think it was interesting and good. Also to think that the whole thing was based on a true story!
If you didn't know, M. Butterly is based on a bizarre but true story of a French diplomat who carried on a 20 yr. affair w/ a Chinese actor and opera singer. The French diplomat said that he didn't realize that his lover was a man pretending to be a woman until he was charged w/ treason by the French Gov. in 1986. Lol..very interesting. If you're not into theater and arts, you might just get bored from sitting there, but if you appreciate these types of things, I recommend that you see it! :) I might even go see the Vagina Monologue next :D. Anyone up to see it w/ me?! OoO..Jen! too bad I couldn't call you during your break! hahah...maybe it's not meant to be?!! haha.. X/
Anyway, Spanish presentation was done today and it went better than I expected. At least it's over and done with. I have a test for the class tomorrow however and I haven't done the homework packet yet. And to add to that, I have a music test tomorrow as well, but I'm going to try and "wing" this one. I guess that's all for now! I have a lot to do by tomorrow! haha ;) Have a good day! and Take care like always! :D
Olive laughed at 11:19 PM//
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Wednesday, April 21, 2004
...Man eaten by Anaconda in the Philippines...
Haha..I wonder if you show this to a foreigner that's never been to the Philippines and tell him this happens everywhere, will he get scared?! lol..jk. But enjoy! and Take Care!
Olive laughed at 8:06 PM//
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Tuesday, April 20, 2004
...Quotes...
A man loses his sense of direction after four drinks;
A woman loses hers after four kisses
-H.L. Mencken
Women are like tea bags,
You never know how strong they really are
until you put them in hot water.
-Nancy Reagan
Love cures people--
both the ones who give it
and the ones who receive it
-Dr. Karl Menninger
Doubt thou the stars are fire,
Doubt the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar,
but never doubt thy love.
-Hamlet, Shakespeare
EYE CONTACT:
A method utilized by a single woman to communicate to a man that she is interested in him. Despite being advised to do so, many women have difficulty looking a man directly in the eyes, not necessarily due to the shyness, but usually due to the fact that a woman's eyes are not located in her chest.
EASY:
A term used to describe a woman who has the morals of a man.
-The Dictionary of Dating...Author unknown
A sigh is the hearts' own natural laugh
Be a God and hold me with a charm!
Be a man and fold me with thine arm
-Robert Browning (1812-1889)(English Poet)
To love someone means to see him as God intended him
-Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Olive laughed at 8:59 PM//
...Canceled...
What a waste of gas. I went to my one and only class of the day and what do you know! it was canceled. I knew it too cause my group was suppose to do our presentation today! ack! oh wells..more time to memorize my lines I guess. Have a good day!
Olive laughed at 9:12 AM//
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Monday, April 19, 2004
...Ugly...
I feel ugly ;( Hope my group do well for our presentation tomorrow. Take Care
Olive laughed at 7:25 PM//
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Sunday, April 18, 2004
...Pink Face...
What a weekend. No work on Saturday and that was a first for a while :) So what did I do?! I woke up around 12 since I worked my only 7-8 hours of schedule Friday night and since that was the only hours I got, I took advantage of the extra hours given for overtime. But I think it's only a 30 min. overtime..lol..but it's ok..it's better than nothing.
When I woke up mother was cooking for her orders of the day. I helped a 'lil then mom asked me if I was going anywhere today. I said no and so daddio asked me if I wanted to come along w/ them. I said sure since I have nothing else to do and so we dropped off the food @ my mom's co-worker's dad's party..hahah and to make it short, it was for Iona's lolo's bday! :) Then we headed to drop off the other order @ this one house my mom wasn't sure which one lol and we were all parked by the house like we were stalking someone there...lol..But it ended up being the right house, but we made our mom go and see if it was first though since she was the one who knew the person sorta..hah. Then we were going to go back to Iona's lolo's bday, but mother said it was a semiformal attire and my dad and I were just in jeans so we said nevermind cause we didn't want to feel out of place. So we just headed to my aunt's place to say hello and get mother's TFC tapes :D. Then said our see u laters and my I LOVE YOU to my lola of course :).
On our way home, dad asked if I wanted to see the new model houses by Bj's house and I said sure. So we went to Telegraph Canyon and we passed by the new Target and stuff and I was all Aww..I miss the posse and our EETuesdays! But this Tuesday it is again right?!? :D THEN it HIT ME..I was looking @ Starbucks and remembering our EET and then I say to myself.."OH S*%$h..I was suppose to meet up w/ my classmates for my Spanish class to work on our project!!!" Oh man! No wonder I was all before hand.."It's Saturday and no work, why don't I have plans?!?" hahah. But yeah, it's settled now and hopefully we do ok on it :). But the parentals and I checked out the new houses and saw familiar faces and A LOT of Filipinos haha. Then being Filipino and all, mother and I took a bunch of candies that they had cause they were Yummy! hahahah Ghetto I know but oh wells! lol!. OoO and we also checked out Khols and I like that store! :) I saw Jen! and I said hello! OoO and I gotta go call Jen to tell her something about the cahier story! lol! :D And that was most of my day.
Then @ around 8, Tep called me up to see if I wanted to hang out. So of course, w/ nothing else better to do, I went to her house and met up w/ everyone else who planned on going. So as usual, living far and all, I'm the first one there then Mary Anne came and Che. Jodie ended up not going so that was Boo :( Next time Jodie k?! I miss everyone! I haven't even seen Che in a hot one! But it was good seeing her again! Anyways, we ended up picking Marianne and the bf Walter @ her new apt. but b4 that, had our laugh on the way up w/ the cut off/Freezing "Hi" or "Hel" and "how"..hahah...and then we tried looking for the "egg" lol! Haha..So we went to get bobas 1st since Che and I were craving. Oo and b4 that also was us kinda getting lost and my "There's and Edward Ci-Ne-Mah" in a fobbish way! hahaha..gotta be there moments..but fun stuff! Then we parked @ by this one house and went across to doorbell for the party. We were all I don't think there's a party cause it's all quiet. Hahah..and smelled like bagoong..hahah..lol! But we ended up doorbelling @ the wrong house anyway! haha and it was the house we parked right infront of! haha.
So it wasn't exactly a party party, but it was fun none the less. It's true though..we don't have to be drunk to act crazy and have fun. It's a fact for me!! :D Lol! I wonder how I would act if I was drunk?!! HmMM..hahah..jk. But yeah, we were there and amused ourselves w/ learning about the bong, pipe, making shadow figures w/ our hands, having the cat attack Mary Anne..hahahah, playing the guitar, making Mary Anne take drink the Pepsi like a shot since it was on a disposable shot cup..LOL! Fun stuff! and of course the under the sheet game! hahah..Mary Anne and her "ME!!!" lol! Fun times! :) and funny how Mary Anne that one dude looked like someone..hah. But yeah, we headed home around 1:30 and I'm sorry Tep if you were sleepy. I didn't want you to feel left out ;/ But thank you for driving and inviting me! :) And wow..I haven't gone home @ 2 in the morning in a long time and I was assuming mother would still be up or something or someone would be waiting for me, but ended up everyone was asleep. Haha :) good times!
Then today, I woke up @ 12..actually, I woke up earlier than that but just turned my alarm off. Dad asked if I was going anywhere today or working and I said I'm not working but I wanted to go to the Jst. Marina Art by the Bay event and I asked him if he wanted to come w/ me. He said yeah and we left around 12. It ended up being GREAT! Father and daughter bonding and I LOVE IT! He enjoyed it as much as I did cause it was filled w/ art stuff. They had paintings displayed and booths where they sold them. They had the WB Frog, the KSWB new caster giving his pic and signature out( I was going to get one, but I was all nah..I'll just end up throwing it away..haha and I'll see him on the news anyway), arts and crafts, food booths, a lot of interesting booths and some we didn't get to see, and of course, performances. I wanted to go there in the first place so that I can finish up the requirement shows I needed for my music class. I ended up seeing 2 of my classmates there and it was cool. I really like the lady playing the harp and it's cool cause she sang different songs in different languages. Even in Tagalog! so I thought that's cool :) and she seemed really nice too! Before her though, we watched this show choir from Bonita Vista and it reminded me of Bell choir and how great performing was! :) and the last show was watched was the San Diego Symphony Orchestra. We didn't get to finish it though cause we went to churc @ 5. But it's ok! hahah...when I got in the car I have a pink face and so does my dad! lol! hahah he was all it's just because I'm mestiso! hahah crazy! ;)
Mom and kuya met up w/ us @ church and when we got home, kuya wanted to get out of the house and invited to family to eat out. So after debating where to go, we all ended up going to Red Lobster in Chula w/ his treat and it was awesome. I love my family! So grateful and for my friends like I've always said! hehe :) Fun filled weeked full of spontainety(sp?). My face is starting to hurt, but it was a BEAUTIFUL weather today! OoO and go check out Jst. Marine cause they have this new cool structures! :D I'm going to get darker! (My face anyway) haha. Well, hope you had a wonderful weekend as well!! :) Take Care and God Bless!
Olive laughed at 9:51 PM//
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Wednesday, April 14, 2004
...How Asians Takes Pictures...
Hahahah...Are these really how Asians takes pictures?!? LOL! I found these on someone's online journal and I thought I'd also share them for laughs! hahah I also added a name for each pose and the ones after the slashes(/) after it were the names I got from the site..haha so ENJOY! :)
"Refresing" pose/crab pose
Squats pose...AND LOOK @ the girl by him! hahah..:D
So which one are YOU!?...LOL!
Olive laughed at 10:29 PM//
...Love My Family...
Happy Birthday Lola Susa! Happy "28th" bday! hehe I love you! and Happy Bday to Buman as well! Well, as usual, a simple get together to celebrate my lola's bday so I'll just post the pics taken of the family ;) I love my family! hehe..and I love u too! (unless you're some stranger, then that's not for you!..hah) So take care & God Bless always! ;)
Olive laughed at 9:27 PM//
...To You...
I'm glad that you are you
I'm glad that you are a part of my life
I'm glad that you are there for me through all this time
I'm glad that you are you
Thank you for listening
Thank you for never seeming to be bored with what I have to say or at least you hide it very well
Thank you for letting me speak my mind and understanding my thoughts
Thank you for everything though it may not seem much to you.
I'm happy that I met you
I'm happy that we went through what we went through
I'm happy that I opened up to you
I'm happy that you never criticized me nor belittled me
Always know that I'm here for you
Always know I was happy
Always know that you hold a special place in my heart
Always know that I'm glad I met you
So I thank you for the times spent
For the conversations to vent out
For assuring me I can always trust you
For the laughter
For the lessons learned
For letting me grow
For being honest
And most of all for being a part of my life :) Thank You!
Olive laughed at 2:04 PM//
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Tuesday, April 13, 2004
...Interesting...
oOo...one of them personality tests and other tests to determine things about you and it's pretty interesting!
This is part of my result of my personality test:
You're a woman with a very balanced personality and lifestyle. You believe in making room in life to relax, think, and have fun. You refuse to settle long-term for a boring job or doing something just because it's expected of you. Love is the same way. You know what real love feels like and you'll accept no imitations! You pride yourself on not being the "typical woman." You're more honest and straightforward than most women. But just because you don't "wear your heart on your sleeve" doesn't mean you lack deep feelings. In fact, you're deeply committed to your loved ones and the causes you believe in. Women as truly balanced as you are very rare.
How Unique is My Type?
Your personality profile is similar to a number of women your age. Looking at over 10,000 women who have taken the test, about 6% (or 1 in 16 women) have very similar beliefs, values, and habits. Of course, the way these qualities are expressed in you is what makes you so unique.
Quirks Men Notice:
Like all women, you have your strengths as well as your quirks and shortcomings. Ultimately, you want to find someone who will love and accept you "warts and all." Though you have lots of friends, it's important to have at least one person in your life who understands.
Do Men Like My Type?
Notice that 35% of men are generally attracted to your personality type. 8% say they are VERY attracted. With the millions of people on Match.com, that translates into lots of potential matches.
Who I'm Looking For:(Sounds like more of me..hah)
You're looking for a "real" man, who's down-to-earth and can enjoy the simple things in life. He'll love to work with his hands and be able to fix almost anything. In fact, he's a very sensual man who enjoys touch and affection. One side of him enjoys hanging out with groups of friends. He's the type of person people come to for practical, no-nonsense advice. Yet he also has a more quiet and shy side that makes him a little hard to get to know. But he's worth the effort! Over time, he'll open up and want to talk about what he sees as most important in life. Even though he won't be one to talk a lot about his feelings, he'll often show how he feels through his actions and practical support.
My Ideal:
You don't expect your partner to be in a good mood all the time. You understand that sometimes your partner will be down, get pessimistic or worry too much. These days are balanced by the many good days the two of you will share. In fact, you share a number of positive qualities, including: He doesn't get overly emotional during disagreements and would rather talk things out calmly and rationally.
He has a "back bone" and won't be pushed around by other people.
He's sensible and pragmatic about his career, buying new things, and making big decisions.
Number of Men:
Men with the exact type of personality you prefer are rare gems. Looking at over 10,000 men who have taken this test, only 6% (or 1 in 16 men) have the exact combination of similarities and contrasts in personality you find extremely appealing.
However, there's a larger group, 30% (or 1 in 3 men), who have most, but not all, of the qualities and habits you like.
Who I'm Looking For: Finding Someone Like Me:
You want to share your life with someone who has the same values, goals, and style you have. Research has shown that couples who have more in common tend to stay together longer. The qualities you find attractive (and unattractive) in men suggest you would certainly be happier with a man who's more like you.
No very strong opposites were detected, which suggests that you are most attracted to men who are very similar to you. This is good news since similar couples tend to stay together longer.
Quirks I Can Tolerate:
The truth is that everyone is potentially "high maintenance." We all have our quirks and shortcomings. The key to long-term harmony is finding a man who can tolerate (or maybe even enjoy) your "quirks," or the little personal oddities that make you unique. You seem okay with several common quirks that might come along with your "ideal" man: (I agree w/ these kinda)
When he says something that comes across a little harsh or insensitive, you typically can overlook it because you know he didn't mean to hurt your feelings.
You can appreciate why he wants to make decisions based on his own past experiences, even though it seems pretty narrow and unimaginative to you sometimes.
You can put up with his being overly critical and bossy at times.
Downside of my "ideal":
In addition to his quirks, your "ideal" personality type may have other qualities that are more frustrating or challenging to deal with. Under stress, his quirks can become serious "flaws." But remember, these quirks are the "flip side of the coin," or the extreme end of qualities you otherwise find appealing. So, be prepared if:
Because you're most attracted to men with balanced personalities, no troubling differences were noted. Nevertheless, remember that too much similarity can lead to conflict as well, especially when problems call for very different perspectives or actions.
Deal Breaker:
Men who are "touchy-feely" (need to discuss their emotions frequently, may cry at movies, etc.) and make major decisions, like whether to move, or which job to take, based on feelings rather than objective facts.
Men who are "touchy-feely" (need to discuss their emotions frequently, may cry at movies, etc.) and make major decisions, like whether to move, or which job to take, based on feelings rather than objective facts.
Good Qualities:
Tries to balance spending time with a few close friends and going out with a big group of friends.
Uses "common sense" to make practical decisions.
Can step back and look objectively at a problem, which can be helpful to you in any crisis.
Tries to be decisive, but still not rush into anything.
Challenging Qualities:
Given the demands of family, friends, and activities, it's hard to find time alone together.
Can lack imagination and stick to traditional solutions even if you suggest newer and better options to explore.
Almost impossible to turn off analysis and thinking about what's happening.
How much attention is given to problems and how decisions get made seems unpredictable.
Sensual Balance:
Good sex is important to you, but it's only one of many ways to bond with your partner. You like to plan ahead for special times when the two of you can get away. You like to make sex a relaxing part of your time together.
Among women your age, your particular combination of sexual drive and interests is similar to about 1 in 10 women (10%).
Is he sexually compatible?:
You're looking for someone just like you, who values the quality of sex over the quantity. You want someone who would never pressure you about sex.
Once you've found your sexual match, the stage will be set for a happy and stable relationship. Your good and honest nature will make your partner feel at ease and unpressured sexually. The down side? Your "comfortable" sex can become "boring" over time. However, just because you're conservative on the outside doesn't mean you can't explore your inner "wild" side with your partner. Make plans for sensual nights together, when you can make love and explore your bodies. Show your partner that still waters really do run deep!
What does personality have to do w/ attraction?
The way in w/c people are similar or different in personality strongly affects their attraction to one another. Two people w/ similar values are more likely to become (and stay) friends or a couple, indeed part of compatibility is having "common ground." However, for many people, compatibility may also involve a balance between each other's quirks and differences.
Olive laughed at 8:59 PM//
...Happy Birthday!...
Happy Birthday to Joy C, to my lola and Buman tomorrow! :) Take Care always! and many more bdays to come! hehe :)
OoO..by the way, the car wouldn't start again this morning:( But luckily it was my sis' day off and she was going to get an oil change..hah.. I'm going to the dealer later with daddio..alright then! Take Care, God Bless, and love ya! heh ;D
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"I ain't firing your," he said, and looked away. "I'm going to have Tink teach you how to run a front-end loader."-Stephen Kin Nightmares & Dreamscapes(cousin's book)
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
The bar helping hold my self.
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
TFC tapes..lol
4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.
2:15
5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
1:20
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The cd playing on my radio: Evanesence
7. When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
Earlier today. Went to school
8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
Other bloggers (Actually, I was looking @ pornos?!..hahah :X)
9. What are you wearing?
Pjs
10. Did you dream last night?
Yeah we all do, but I just don't remember.
11. When did you last laugh?
This morning ;)
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Picture frames and the bulletin board I made :)
13. Seen anything weird lately?
Myself
14. Last movie you saw?
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
15. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
A ticket to Philippines to see my lola :D
16. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
My mom calls me Beh at times
17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Stop the crazy wars
18. Do you like to dance?
Yeah infront of my bedroom mirror where NO ONE is watching. Well, I do leave the windows open for people to see outside, but other than that, No one else can see...hahaha
19. George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or someone who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?
Both? or maybe you should just ask other countries (North Korea)..hah
20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Silli-Hoe ;)
21. [Same question for a boy]
Phó sho
22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Definitely :D I wouldn't mind living in a Spanish speaking country to broaden my knowledge and to be able to speak Spanish fluently. In the Philippines too! I don't mind! :) or anywhere fun in the world! hah
Olive laughed at 1:02 PM//
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Monday, April 12, 2004
...Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind...
Happy Belated Easter to everyone! I know that the bunny and looking for eggs are fun great things, but I hope that we don't forget about WHY we celebrate this "holiday"/occassion in the first place! And that is because Jesus is ressurected :D Anyway, the parentals decided to have a LATE minute getogether with the relatives to celebrate easter so they woke my ass up really early to help clean. It's ok though since my room was IN NEED of cleaning! haha..a lot of hair in the vacuum! lol..I haven't vacuumed in that long! lol..But the celebration was the same 'ol fun as usual, but towards the end, my bro, cuz, and I decided to watch a movie. We went to Fashion and watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I recommend the movie, but it would be a fair warning to tell you that it may run long for you. My bro and I were getting restless but it got interesting towards the end. The Movie is basically about a couple (Jim Carrey and Kate Winslet) undergoing a procedure to erase each other from their memories when their relationship turns sour, but it is only through the process of loss that they discover what they had to begin with. One of them kinda "Sassy Girlish" movie somewhat I think. The title came from a quote of Alexander Pope and here are tsome of the other quotes that were said in the movie ncluding the title: "How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! / The world forgetting, by the world forgot / Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! / Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd. "
If you had the chance to erase a memory what would it be? Would you even consider it? For me, I don't think I would erase any even if it's painful or what not because every memory and experience made made me stronger and be the way I am now. I'm the type of person that does not like to regret anything so when I come into situations that may make me regret getting into, I think about it first hand. Or if I don't get to think of it and just went in the situation, I try and make something positive of the situation to make it into something I can learn from. I don't just say "I don't regret it" just to justify what I did, but I contemplate about the situation and try to learn from it instead of regreting it.
Anyways, I miss all my friends. Spring break is over and I didn't get to see ANY of them..how pathetic am I?! I was either working or at home "trying" to do homework or what not. Funny cause I had ALL the time in the world to do homework and study for my test, but ther I was up until 2 in the morning studying and doing homework for a class I ended up missing anyway :(. I have 6 absense in that class now and I think we can only have 5. Sucks to go through my "phase"! and it HAD to be this sem. But it's better now than later. I'm not even going to say "I don't have the time" because I do! I certainly do! But it's just the matter of managing what I do and getting my ass in check. I need the motivation that's all! But I'm hoping to get there soon! By the way, my car's batt. died on me again! but this time it was at home and it wasn't my fault! I might take it to the dealer tomorrow to see what's up! Maybe I need a new batt. But that would suck since it hasn't been a year yet! But eh..Thanks Eli for the ride home sweetheart! :) I'm jealous of your check! haha but I'll try that next sem! :D So I guess that's all! I ended up just going to 1 class today since 113 was cancled, but it's ok since I got to study and hung out w/ this girl in my class. Okie dokies! Take Care, God Bless, and Love Ya! :D
Olive laughed at 7:13 PM//
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Thursday, April 08, 2004
...First & Last...
FIRST:
First Real Crush: Joseph Guadiz back in 3rd grade! hah
First Real Girlfriend/Boyfriend: Preston
First Real Date: 2 yrs. ago?!
First Kiss: haha..He scarred me for life! Lj! hahah BoO! I'm in need of a theraphy!
First Job: We're Entertainment @ the old outlet across the new one! haha..it was a cool store! :D
First Screename: LP55O! wow! I miss it!
First Album/CD: Pink..lol! the one Gelo gave me for Christmas!
First Piercing/Tattoo: When I was a baby
First True Love: Preston
First Enemy: No one really..just hated someone
First Big Trip: Philippines my senior yr.
First Detention: Senior yr. for being late..stupid I know! haha
First Time Dying My Hair: last year..hah
First Formal Dance: RO Ball I believe?!
First Time Breaking A Bone: Never have & hope I never will *knocks on elbow*
First Time Getting Really Sick: When I was younger I guess?! I do remember getting really sick back in my jr. yr though
First Hangover: Never have :D
LAST:
Last Cigarette: HmM..does 2nd hand count?! hahah
Last Cuss Word Uttered: F&*5
Last Compliment: Said to me:"You look pretty today"-Yesterday hehe :) and I gave was "You're smart, but you're just lazy" haha to my cousin-Today..Oh wait! that reminded me! haha..the last compliment I got was from my cuz also "You're smart too! but you just put too much pressure on yourself"..HmM..that was interesting to know! hah
Last Girlfriend/Boyfriend: Preston..wait! Actually, it's Maelove! haha I MISS U!
Last Crush: Sean..hah
Last Time Driving: This afternoon w/ the cousin
Last Big Car Ride: Big Bear in 10th grade?!
Last Kiss: I gave was fr. my lola
Last Good Cry: Youth Rally! Praise God!
Last Movie Seen: Walking Tall
Last Beverage Drank: Agua
Last Food Consumed: Seafood thing from Bento & Noodles..didn't really like it :(
Last Phonecall: I made was to Jen and received one from Mary Anne
Last Thing Written: Shih Tzu
Last Show Watched: Sarah something from the food network!
Last Time Showered: Last night
Last Shoes Worn: The brown slip on Sketchers
Last Person That You Saw Naked Besides You: myself..Oh I mean..Ugh..haha
Last CD Played: My bro's in my car..forgot the cd name
Last Item Bought: A bunch of stuff costing me about $21 @ the .99 store! I guess it wasn't really a .99 store! ;T
Last Disappointment: Few weeks ago?
Last Annoyance: Not sure..wait! Today from the crazy drivers! ArRg
Last Ice Cream Eaten: Today from Cold Stone and forgot what it was called
Last Song Heard: Stacy Oricco's song
Last Time Wanting To Die: Long time ago
Last Formal Dance: Dance up north in Pomona ;D Fun TImES!
Last Piercing/Tattoo: When I was a baby..hah
Last Birthday Celebrated: My sister's bday last March ;) OoO and Eliza's at heart! and right now, Jings! :) Happy Birthday Sweets!
Olive laughed at 10:27 PM//
...Story Joke Time...
If you're having a bad day, hope this 'lil story would at least make you SMILE! :D
A city lawyer went duck hunting in a rural town. He shot and dropped a
bird, but it fell into a farmer's paddock on the other side of a fence.
As the lawyer climbed over the fence, an elderly farmer walked up to
him and asked what he was doing.
The lawyer responded, "I shot a duck and it fell in this field, and now
I'm going to retrieve it." The old farmer replied, "This is my
property, and you are not coming over here." "I am one of the best trial
attorneys in the country and if you don't let me get that duck I'll sue you
and take everything you own," boasted the lawyer.
The old farmer smiled. "Apparently, you don't know how we do things up
here. We settle small disagreements like this with the Three Kick
Rule." "What's that?" the lawyer asked. "Well, first I kick you three times
and then you kick me three times, and so on, back and forth, until
someone gives up."
The attorney thought about it and figured he could take the old codger.
So he agreed. The old farmer walked up to the city feller and kicked
him in the groin and dropped him to his knees. His second kick nearly
ripped the man's nose off his face. The third kick almost knocked the
lawyer out of his wits.
The lawyer slowly got to his feet and said, "Okay, you old coot-now
it's my turn." The old farmer smiled and said, "Nah, I give up. You can
have the duck."
And here's a quote to share:
"Always be nice to people on the way up; because you'll meet the same people on the way down."
-Wilson Mizner
Olive laughed at 1:59 AM//
...A to Z...
[A]ge:19..Oh no! last years of teen yrs! Ack!
[B]oyfriend's name: Mr. Old Navy! He's hot stuff! gives me $ every 2 wks! :)
[C]hore u hate: cleaning the bathroom
[D]ad's name: Eduardo
[E]ssential everyday item: Computer or Planner? hah
[F]avorite actor/actress: HmM...
[G]old or silver: Silver
[H]ometown: Olongapo City and San Diego
[I]nstruments u play(ed): Piano and guitar..I think that's it
[J]ob: Sales Associate hah
[K]id: none
[L]iving arangements: At home w/ the family hehe
[M]om's name: Leticia
[N]umber of ppl u slept with: :X MuHahaha
[O]vernight hospital stays: None (hope to never go through it)
[P]hobia: Heights! Ack!
[Q]uote u like: DON'T go for looks; they can deceive. DON'T go for wealth; even that fades away. GO for someone who makes you SMILE because it takes only a smile to make a DARK DAY seem BRIGHT. Find the one that makes your HEART SMILE!
[R]ide u have: 03 Honda CRV
[S]how you like: Too many
[T]ime u wake up: 6:45 AM everyday (sometimes wknd since I've gotten used to waking up that early)
[U]nique habit: picking on my butt..hahaha..jk.
[V]egetable u refuse to eat: ampalaya (bitter melon?) hah eck!
[W]orst habit: Peeing my bed ..Damn! I slipped..I mean..Ugh..peeping tomming..Oh no! *runs away*
[X]-rayz u've had: Don't remember..but I just had 1 from the dentist last week! hah
[Y]ummy food u make: Lasagna and apple pie or whatever I've baked or cooked..hah..they tell me anyway..hahaha ..Hey! >=o
[Z]odiac sign: Virgo
Olive laughed at 1:02 AM//
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Tuesday, April 06, 2004
...Sometimes I Wish...
I found this on someone's online journal a while back, and I thought it was interesting so I'm posting it here. The first post is hers and what she had was good, so since I have nothing much to do (though I'm in need of a Spring Cleaning for my room), I'm going to make up some of my own "Sometimes I wish" that includes "Sometimes I wonder" that I'll try to relate hah ;)
Sometimes I WISH that the guy i've always been dreaming of would rescue me from all the fears and uncertainties in life and show me how it feels to be loved back in return. But patience comes along with waiting and even if it means you have to wait forever, you're bound to be with someone if it was really meant to be .
___ Sometimes I WISH I would've tried
___ Sometimes I WISH I could just wake up and start a brand new day leaving all the regrets and bad memories that were once put upon me behind. But I've learned that the world doesn't just work like that, all it does is tries it's best to keep you intact. yet you really got to be careful when taking that extra step because the moment you choose to go your own separate way, in the end, you're on your own . .
___ Sometimes I WISH that love could be the way its described in all those lovely fairytales and romance movies. But other than all those sappy love scenes, in reality most of the hardships and heartbreaks are what you have to go through to really experience what love is . yes you may hold a grudge on love once you get a glimpse of all the pain that follows, but to live without love is to live a lonely life full of regrets .
___ Sometimes I WISH that life could be easier to live and easier to hold onto. But if life was easy, we wouldn't have to go through trials and tribulations to help us become a stronger person. we wouldn't know what tears and pain were, we wouldn't know how to deal .
___ Sometimes I WISH that the guy i've always been dreaming of would rescue me from all the fears and uncertainties in life and show me how it feels to be loved back in return. But patience comes along with waiting and even if it means you have to wait forever, you're bound to be with someone if it was really meant to be .
___ Sometimes I WISH I would've tried harder to fulfill my dreams because then i would be more successful and find happiness thrown at my feet, instead of wishing and hoping for it to come sooner .
___ Sometimes I WISH that i could give more to those who've been there for me. I realized that all I could do is tell them how thankful i am and how grateful i am to have them in my life. But those are just words, I want to be able to show them my real feelings deep inside. I want to be able to repay them for all they've done .
\\\\\\\\\ Yet the number one thing that I REALLY WISH FOR is that out of all the wishes I`ve ever made in life, one would come true. to have one that would fulfill all my dreams, all my hopes, all my uncertainties . . and complete me as a whole .
I F _ O N L Y .
....My Sometimes I Wish & Wonder...
Sometimes I wonder if the man that I think I'm destined to be with is really the one. But if it is meant to be then it is, and I am willing to wait until that day comes when my wish to find out who that one is comes true.
___ Sometimes I WISH I had more courage.
___ Sometimes I Wonder how many struggles I have to go through life so that I can prepare myself. But Life doesn't work that way and lets you know ahead of time. So we have to accept the challenges God gives us because he will never give us a challenge that we're not able to handle. Learn how to trust in God even if it's hard because in the end, when you feel all alone, only HE will be there by your side.
___ Sometimes I WISH that I would experience a love like in the telenovelas without the hardships . But love does not always have a happy ending because with love comes happiness and sadness. Hardships and struggles comes along with the sweetness and joy, but without the challenges at hand, you won't be able to learn to love. And though most comes to an end, we grow from the experience, and with the experience, we learned to love-A love that gives us life.
___ Sometimes I Wonder how many great friendships I will have through out my life. Life doesn't give you that answer either, but you learn as you mature and only through the test of time will you find out.
___ Sometimes I WISH I knew how to be grateful for everything I have everyday. I'm still learning I know, but there are always room to grow and gain the knowledge to do so. It's not usually our fault that we don't realize most of the things that we have because we're abundant w/ them and we grew up around them or having them, but in due time I will gain the knowledge and experience to be thakful for what I have around me.
___ Sometimes I Wonder how it would be once again to be with the friend I hold special. I guess one event can't always be the same, but this time I know things would be different because we have grown and learned in the years. But only through the experience of being with each other will I know if things are really meant to be. Until then, patience will be the key since I'm not in a rush and with patience comes great rewards.
___ Sometimes I WISH I knew how to open up and talk about my problems. But I know I'll get there because I have the mentality of not wanting to burden friends with my problems and also because I've always been the one they confided in that I've grown accustomed to it. No, I'm not complaining, in fact I love it when they do because I know I can be trusted, but it comes down to me and my trust. I am thankful for the people in my life however that have always been there, but also wish that I could tell them more often.
\\\\\\\\\ Yet the number one thing that I REALLY WISH FOR is that I was able to say I LOVE YOU to every single person in my life w/o the awkwardness or hiya of saying it. I'm learning however, I'm starting to say it to both my dearest Lolas! :) I LOVE YOU! heheh
I F _ O N L Y ...things were easier....
Olive laughed at 11:45 PM//
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Thursday, April 01, 2004
...For Laughs...
Hahah..ok for laughs, here's a funny comic that you guys should go to. Here's the link
lives a 20 year old female
named Olive. She has a
million stories in her life.
And this is the place where she
lets all the stories alive!
