[ everything behind me seems so insignificant / lost in my confusion ]
lives a 20 year old female
named Olive. She has a
million stories in her life.
And this is the place where she
lets all the stories alive!
So time to clean the room and the bathroom before I leave w/ ate tomorrow morning. My room's a mess and I haven't really started cleaning yet. Hahah..I always lag and look at me! I'm here blogging away! lol! But anyway, won't be back 'til Monday, but hope you guys have a weekend! :) So I guess that's all for now! take care and God Bless! and I'll end it here as I sing* I'm leaving on a je plane, I don't know when I'll be back again..(monday)..haha
P.S
Since it's summer soon, here's MR. Coolaid for ya!
Olive laughed at 9:45 AM//
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Monday, May 24, 2004
...Realization...
Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find
the person we love, we fail to recognize and
appreciate the people who love us. We miss out
on so many beautiful things and simply because we
allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish
concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for
the man of words for you will find rewarding
happiness not with the man you love but the man
who loves you more.
The best lovers are those capable of loving from
a distance far enough to allow the person to
grow, but never too far to feel the love deep
within your being. TO LET GO OF SOMEONE DOESN’T
MEAN YOU HAVE TO STOP LOVING, IT ONLY MEANS THAT
YOU ALLOW THAT PERSON TO FIND HIS OWN HAPPINESS
WITHOUT EXPECTING HIM TO COME BACK. Letting go
is not just setting the other person free but it
is also setting yourself free from all
bitterness, hatred, and anger that keep in your
heart. Do not let the bitterness scare away your
strength and weaken your faith, and never allow
pain to dishearten you, but rather let yourself
grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may find
peace in just loving someone from a distance not
expecting in return.
But be careful, for this can sustain life can
never give enough room for us to grow. We can
all survive with just beautiful memories of the
past but real peace and happiness come only with
open acceptance of what reality is today. There
comes a time in our lives when we chance someone
so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves
intensely attracted to that person. This
feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives
and eventually consumes our thoughts and
actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to
realize that this person feels nothing more for
us but friendship. We start our desperate
attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the
end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end
up being sorry for ourselves. You don’t have to
forget someone you love. What you need to learn
is how to accept the verdict of reality without
being bitter or sorry for yourself.
Believe me you would be better off giving that
dedication and love to someone more deserving.
Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible
and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not
only to your feelings but to reason as well.
Always remember that if you lose someone today,
it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.
If you lose love that doesn’t mean you failed in
love. Cry if you have to, but make it sure that
the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness
that the past has left with you. Let go of
yesterday and love will find its way back to
you. And when it does, pray that it may be the
love that will stay and last a lifetime.
There are two ways to live your life. One is as
though nothing is a miracle. The other is as
though EVERYTHING IS A MIRACLE.
Olive laughed at 11:46 PM//
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Sunday, May 23, 2004
...Finals!...
Ack! Finals! it's here!!! yet I'm not reading crap!!! I really want to get a B in my classes at least, but I dunno. But eh! on a lighter note, once finals is over summer here I come! then summer schooL! wack! but eh..this summer should be filled w/ good stuff! :) Jen's Bday to start it off so it should be a blast! haha! Then Maelove's arrival!!!! YEAH!! then the No Doubt Concert! hope Maelove can really go! then the cousin's wedding!! and bdays coming up!! :) And Jerome leaving! but we'll make it a blast before you go!
Do not undermine yer worth by comparing yerself
wid others.It`s bec. we R different dat each of
us is special.Do not set yer
goals by wut other people deem important.Only U
know wut is best 4 U.Do not
take 4 granted da things closest 2 yer
heart.Cling 2 dem as U would yer life 4
widout dem,life is meaningless.Do not let yer
life slip through yer fingers by
living in the past nor 4 da future.By living yer
life one day at a time, you
live all the days of your life.Do not give up
when you still have something to
give.Nothing is really over until the moment U
stop trying.It is a fragile
thread dat binds us 2 each other. Do not be
afraid 2 encounter risks.It is by
taking chances dat we learn how 2 be brave.Do not
shut love out of yer life by
saying it is impossible to find.The quickest way
2 receive love is 2 give love;
da fastest way 2 lose love is to hold it 2
tightly. Do not dismiss yer dreams.2
be widout dreams,is 2 be widout hope.2 be widout
hope, is 2 be widout purpose.
Do not run through life so fast dat U 4get not
only where U have been, but also
where U R going.Life is not a race, but a journey
2 be savored each step of da
way.
Olive laughed at 11:33 PM//
...Love...
love means...
a girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the
road...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its 2 scary!
Guy: Then tell me u love me.
Girl: Fine, I love u. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can u take my helmet off &put it on? Its
buggin me.
In the paper the next day: A motorcycle had
crashed into a building because of break
failure. 2 ppl were on it but only 1 survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road,
the guy realizd that his brakes broke, but he
didn't want 2 let the girl know. Instead, he had
her say she loved him & felt her hug 1 last
time, then had her wear his helmet so that she
would live even though it meant that he would
die.
I read this from the Friendster Bulletin and thought I had to share it.
I talked to my mom today in the Philippines and she said that the weather is bad and it's been raining for 4 days now. Hopefully they'll still have fun and that they'll always be safe. I love you mom! and my dad and family as well! :D Take Care Always and God Bless!
Olive laughed at 11:22 PM//
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Tuesday, May 18, 2004
...Kids Now a Days...
Olive laughed at 10:10 PM//
...Poll...
Hey! I just thought I'd poll Pilipinos regarding what they think they should be categorized as in applications or what not. Just thought I'd make a poll for it so if you want to poll in your opinion, go for it! :)
Your InsightHere it is! sorry I couldn't post the main question here, but if you can just go on the site and it'll take you there directly! Have fun!
Olive laughed at 6:45 PM//
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Sunday, May 16, 2004
...Long Day...
I'll update later, but I'll leave you off w/ a new clip :)
Olive laughed at 1:56 AM//
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Wednesday, May 12, 2004
...It's back!...
It's back! the penguin is back!!! hahahah!
So mother and aunt went to Philippines today! I came home just in time cause they were about to leave when I got in the house. So we went to my aunt's then to Sweetwater to wait for their shuttle bus to pick them up. And that's about it! talked to Señora Jen like usual and watched a Pilipino movie called Milan. Hah..I slept in some part, but it's ok! haha..:) good movie none the less! Have fun mother and auntie! take care and love you!
hah! and another one I found!
Olive laughed at 6:42 PM//
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Monday, May 10, 2004
...Wow...
I didn't go to school this morning cause I woke up late. See, the main class I really go to is Spanish because she's strict, and so whenever I miss that class, I just don't go to my other classes ;/ because I can..lol. So, I just dropped off the blockbuster movies this morning and got my check because as usual, I'm in need of money.
Work was ok and tomorrow, I'm going to take a friend/co-worker to get her nose pierced for her bday. :) Speaking of bday, she has the same bday as my best friend back in Philippines and my cousin Mae. So I decided to call my friend Gene back home, but no one was picking up. I also tried calling my friend Beejay but no luck either. I was already running out of minutes and that phonecard sucks cause it takes up A LOT of your minutes even if it hasn't even been that long. Anyway, I took my old planners out to see their phone numbers and with my friend's number, I saw my cousins' phone number in Dubai. So then I thought, "Hey! why not try to see if I can contact them?!" and so I did and guess what?! I talked to my aunt!! Wow! Lol! we just talked liked we were never separated for 8 years! and it was great! It was 8 in the morning there and it's 9 @ night here so that's cool! I wasn't even sure if who I was going to be talking to, but it ended up being my autn. I had forgotten how she sounded and of course, I didn't even go through puberty when we left home in the Philippines so I sounded really different. She said I sound like my ate and that I have a "slang"-I guess meaning I speak English very well-(slang in tagalog maybe?). Lol.. cause I asked for my cousin to greet her in English and my tita thought I was one of my cousin's school teacher! lol! :) But that was great! I really thought my parents were already asleep so I didn't bother to go to outside since I didn't want to waste the minutes either. But yeah, at least we now know how to call Dubai! :) Great stuff! lol! :D Hopefully, we'll all have a reunion one of these days!!! ;D I love it! Family.. ;D *sigh*
Olive laughed at 9:56 PM//
...No Mexicans?!...
Lol..I found this on someone's xanga and thought.Ooo..
And thought this was a good insight...
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't Love, it's Like.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't Love, it's Lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't Love, it's Luck.
Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.
Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't Love, it's Loyalty.
Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't Love, it's Pity.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't Love, it's being Unconfident.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn't Love, it's Friendship.
Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
It isn't Love, it's a Lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn't Love, it's Charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's Love.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's Love.
Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's Love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's Love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's Love.
But do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you?
Then it's Love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then it's Love.
Now, if Love is painful, and tortures us so,
why do we Love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
Because it's...
Love
Olive laughed at 1:07 PM//
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Sunday, May 09, 2004
...Happy Mother's Day!...
To all mothers! Happy Mother's Day! My day today was spent w/ my mom, my mom's sister (my aunt) and her daughter Manang An-an where we went to Pt. Loma to check out the beautician there that's going to do my cousin's make up and hair. We spent a good 4 hours there and they treated us out to some Hawaiian food and that was great! :D Love you mom! :D
The family actually spent Mother's Day yesterday because we knew that it was going to be a crazy day @ the restaurants! So, we ended up eating @ Dancing Zorbas to try something new and it wasn't that bad :) Next for Father's Day, we'll be trying something else new! :D Well, I hope everyone had a great weekend!
Funny how when I have all the free time in the world, I tend to not able to do the things I want to cause I don't know where to start. And in the end, I get mad at myself cause I end up not doing anything @ all... :(
By the way, I got this song from Maryanne D's friend's site..hah..gotta like his voice! :D
Olive laughed at 10:53 PM//
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Friday, May 07, 2004
...I Tried...
LOl..ok...so I found the English version of this song by Kiss from Hazel's blog and I was all happy. I remember when I posted the video clip on here and wished I could understand what they were saying. So today, I have "nothing better to do" -when really I should be catching up w/ school work- I decided to try to get the lyrics down since I couldn't find them online. Maybe I was looking hard enough..then I went back to Hazel's to see if she had lyrics on there..and truth and behold! there was! hahah..so after taking my time and kept refreshing the page and trying to understand what she's saying there was already the lyrics infront of me. But I'll put my "version" of what I could understand. haha..I would've continued listening, but I found the lyrics alreayd..and lol..funny comparison w/ what I got!
My Version:
Oh yeah yeah yeah yehh..
ahuh.....
*i just can't understand the ways
of all the men I met these days
given my heart
and then they rip it all away
it showed me how muched u loved me
and how our love was meant to be
and i believed in u
I thought that u would set me free
CHORUS:
u should have just told me the truth
that I wasn't the girl for u
still I didn't have a clue
so my heart depend on you
though I say I hate u now
...korean word.. tawa shu dekurshiwa...
I'll always have love for u
because I am a girl..
VERSE:
u told the men will leave and go
get sick of u and move
I know that it's not right
I gave all yours to not just cry
let go and get and I'll be home?...
to give my all when nothing's true
I won't be playing your game
but I will fall in love again
Chorus
VERSE II
I love you so
now u leave me in the cold
about this way
I thought that u only loved me
until the time
I'll pray that you arrive
you hurt me so
I just can't let u go
BRIDGE
you took advantage of my willingess
to do anything for love
and I'm the only one in pain
will u pls take it all away
never thought of being a girl
I
now I will be the one
to never get torn again
thought I say i hate u now
..krn word.. thawa shu dekushiwa
I'd always have love fo ru
bec. I am a girl
though I say I hate u know
....krn word...tawa shu dekushiwa
I'll always
bec. I am a girl...
The REAL Lyrics:
* I just can't understand the ways, Of all the men and their mistakes. You give them all your heart, and then they rip it all away...
- You told me how much you loved me, And how our love was meant to be. And i believed in you, i thought that you would set me free...
(chorus)
You should've just told me the truth, That i wasn't the girl for you... Still i didn't have a clue, So my heart depended on You... Whoah
Although i'll say 'i hate u' now, Although i'll shout and curse you out... I'll always have love for you, Because i am a girl
* Been told a man will leave you cold, Get sick of you and bored... I know that it's no lie, I gave my all still i just cry. Never again will i be fooled, to give my all when nothing's true... I won't be played again, but i will fall in love again...
(chorus)
You should've just told me the truth, That i wasn't the girl for you... Still i didn't have a clue, So my heart depended on You... Whoah
Although i'll say 'i hate u' now, Although i'll shout and curse you out... I'll always have love for you, Because i am a girl
--- I loved u so... now u leave me in the cold, How could this be, i thought that u'd only love me... Into the night, i will pray that you're alright.. You hurt me so, I can't let u go ---
(bridge)
You took advantage of my willingness to do anything for love, Now i'm the only one in pain... will you please take it all away~ Oh~
(chorus)
Never thought born being a girl, How i can love you and be burned... And now i will build a wall, to never get torn again~
Although i'll say 'i hate u' now, Although i'll shout and curse you out... I'll always have love for you, Because i am a girl
Although i'll say 'i hate u' now, Although i'll shout and curse you out... I'll always have love for you, Because i am a girl
Yup..research paper due Friday and I don't have crap yet as usual. Ms. Procrastination here! so ack! screwed...
But anyway, to brighten your day..here's a funn yet kinda sad clip..lol..enjoy!
Olive laughed at 10:57 PM//
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Sunday, May 02, 2004
...Extra Credit Change of Plans...
Wow! I actually had things planned for once! haha and I felt like I actually had a "life". But yeah, Thursday, bro asked if I wanted to go w/ him to watch a classical music performance. I told him I wasn't able to go and he said good thing I didn't because when he went it ended up not being a classical music, which we both needed for our music class. Friday, it was Mary Anne's bday! I bought her breakfast and I ended up spending most of the day w/ her and Tep cause I was picking up my mom that day to take her to the salon. We ended up going to Frys and she finally got her digi cam to take to Philippines in June. By the way, everyone's going somewhere lately like Eliza in HI right now, Mary Anne G and Maryanne D to Philippines in June, Mother in May, and w/ those @ hand, I myself is going w/ my sister to Maryland, New Jersey, Washingtong, and New York for Memorial weekend :) Hopefully we'll get to go to all those places during those days! But yeah, that Friday, Mary Anned planned a bonfire, but she had a change of plan so I stayed home.
Saturday came and it was a fun fille day. I went to Costco w/ the family except kuya in the morning, then I picked up Azel around 12 to 1 and we headed to the Chinese Museum for the 2nd Annual Asian Pacific Islander Forum. I thought it was interesting and great that they have that. I learned about the lives they lived back in the days being first generations here in San Diego and I even go an autograph of the eldest in the family that was featured in the flyer. Unfortunately, I guess since this is only the 2nd annual, there were not a lot of people to represent the Filipinos and other races and also, there were not a lot of youths to acknowledge the event. The only young people there were the students from Mr. Tuyay's class and I really thought that was unfortunate. But hopefully in years to come, there will be more people to know about this wonderful event and learn about their history. Their Asian History and be proud of it! :) Thanks Azel for coming w/ me! :)
After that event, I went home and ended up going w/ Azel and Jerome to the Symphony concert w/ them @ UCSD. Azel told me that it was free so I came along, but it ended up not being free and I'm sorry for being a burden :(. We stayed there 'til the intermission and we headed to eat @ Dennys in Coronado. The couple fed me and it was fun fun! THANK YOU! for the great dinner! lol! and of course, it was fun stuff! :D. Now, it's Sunday and I went to church w/ the fam and I went out w/ the bro and sis. I was suppose to go out w/ my cus and kuya, but change of plans again and we just went and looked for a phone for ate. She didn't get to buy one, but still looking. We also visited my lola and aunt and that was cool. Also, of course being National City and all, I saw Chas!!! and Ruth! lol! so that was cool! :) Well, I guess that's al for now! It's soOoO hot right now u don't even know! ack! So time to take a shower like whoa! Take Care, God Bless, and have a great week!!!
By the way, a joke for laughs! :)
Bob goes into the public restroom and sees this guy standing next to the urinal. The guy has no arms. As Bob's standing there, taking care of business, he wonders to himself how the poor wretch is going to take a leak.
Bob finishes and starts to leave when the man asks Bob to help him out. Being a kind soul, Bob says, "Ah, OK, sure, I'll help you."
The man asks, "Can you unzip my zipper?"
Bob says, "OK."
Then the man says, "Can you pull it out for me?"
Bob replies, "Uh, yeah, OK."
Bob pulls it out and it has all kinds of mold and red bumps, with hair clumps, rashes, moles, scabs, scars, and reeks something awful. Then the guy asks Bob to point it for him, and Bob points for him. Bob then shakes it, puts it back in and zips it up.
The guy tells Bob, "Thanks, man, I really appreciate it."
Bob says, "No problem, but what the hell's wrong with your penis?"
The guy pulls his arms out of his shirt and says, "I don't know, but I ain't touching it.
lives a 20 year old female
named Olive. She has a
million stories in her life.
And this is the place where she
lets all the stories alive!
